THE VOID ~ Suffering

~The Void~

            From a young age I can honestly say that I have always felt different. I remember when 9/11 happened and I was sitting in class and was laughing at the chaos. My teacher Ms. Moss pulled me aside and gave me a huge speech on respect. I remember being so young and not really being able to wrap my head around everything. I thought "At least it wasn't me" ... which was horrible to think. Reason I bring this up, is because I still to this day don't know what happened. Why did I enjoy watching the carnage and destruction. Human's have always been fascinated with these things... in a sense it brings them back to reality. Pain and that feeling of loss can really take a hold.

I truly believe that all human's are destined at some point to feel that pain. I don't actually think people can truly understand life without suffering. A person who never suffers is usually living a blind life. They take things for granted and usually have some idea of meaning in there life... which is just an illusion. Maybe living a blind life is better for some? 

This is going to sound horrible to some... but I find chaos and destruction as a necessary thing. I mean here I sit on my laptop writing and I know there are people all over gushing over Celebs or there favorite shows... ect. People are grasping to find meaning and so they latch onto things that will only give the temporary fulfillment. The Values of the world are truly meaningless to me... Perhaps that is why I am so disgusted. People latching onto these things ... and suddenly when chaos ensues or some crazy world event takes place... everyone pulls the blinders down and "Gets It". 

There is more love and more communication between people ... things get solved and people seem to truly be REAL for once... however it is always short lived. We are visual creatures, which brings me back to my point that human's don't suffer enough. They go from this fake world and fake interpretation to finally understanding the true value... which is life. 

Yet it never lasts. 

They go on back to there fake worlds... some to put a band-aid over it... while others brains are visually stimulated by something else... they forget about the events that took place. We try to bring it back though anniversaries and Visuals on TV and Internet ... only to find that most are using it for personal gain like the media... they need the ratings. The people who watch reflect and go back to there fake ideals. Posting on Facebook and Twitter and hoping for responses ... we are now at an age where people are using the chaos and suffering of others for conversation and likes. Human's are just attention seekers at this point... even the chaos and events alone are not enough anymore... people actually love it ... because it can be manipulated and how about those new conversations we can have!

It makes me realize that humans who visually are stimulated by this are never in true form of understanding. When you watch other people suffer... how can you really understand? You drive your car and pay your bills and get bored... and that to most is suffering.... they do not truly understand. I think some try to but it gets lost somewhere. People who have suffered personally understand what life is. Unless they use that suffering as an excuse or as some way to get sympathy from the sheep. As a man who has gone through a lot... I choose not to explain my suffering as I understand that sympathy is not a direct emotion that I wan't from people. Sympathy is weak ... we must learn from the suffering and move forward ... but only if we understand it and embrace it. We become strong and mentally prepared for all... Values change which is the most important thing. 

I have had new toys as a kid and video games ... but not having parents around made all that pointless to me. Life is so much more important ... however everyone is so "busy" they don't look at life as a value but now as a talking point or a cliff note for the back of there minds. To me it is the ONLY thing that is important. Spending time with people and loving one another to truly feel what life is all about. Human's have become tarnished vessels who only seem to parade around as wolves looking for there next fix. Blame the media or the politicians ... Hell blame god or the Universe. Doesn't matter... Human's are lost.

They are creating there own mental problems through false hopes and wonders. This is as dangerous as region now. Here we have people thinking the next fix is all there is ... or we are gods so why care about others... "This is my time" they say. 

I have learned through suffering that life is about love and keeping it close as all things will perish. Love is beyond good and evil. 

Today all I see is evil. 

I don't think humans will ever learn ... so long as the new game system or tv show keeps them busy. It is funny how empty most feel and can't seem to grasp why this is. They look around everywhere and are lost... the technology is the cure... perhaps it is religion... maybe that big family and that big house. Yet it never seems to pan out ... people on there death beds wondering what it was all about or giving advice that seems to persuade another... which is just empty knowledge with values from an old mindset. This is not to say that there are not the collective few ... which I hope to meet someday.

I just recently saw STAR WARS ... and I can say that when the DeathStar destroyed a planet ... I couldn't help but feel as though this was a necessary Evil. The destruction of hope and fake values based on meaningless lives. Keep those who understand ... truly understand what LOVE is ... and just destroy the rest. A cleansing sounds horrible to most... but we have become so dirty. 

I don't hate anyone ... just understand the human condition. 

You can not hate something that has been led astray... the world is going to implode soon. 

I just hope to find my close few and rocket the hell out of here... 

to a new place... a place of Harmony and Love. 

Lets Fly Away... Lets Start Anew!

~Aaron